Today I bumped into my first friend C. We met when we were 5 and then attended the same classes for almost 10 years. She was my closest friend until I met K. tough she had closer friendships with other girls. I never was the kind of BFF that will go with you to the smelly school bathroom because she can't stand to be apart. We went to different high schools but managed to keep in touch till we graduated. Now we see each other once in a couple of months and always by accident.
She always was slim and fit, a lot of people found her attractive. I considered her nice looking but didn't feel any kind of sexual pull towards her. I think I felt about her how I would feel about my sister if I was "normal". Today we spent about half an hour talking on the bus and I kept trying not to stare at her breasts (rather small but perfectly lifted). She became sexual in my eyes. And sexy.
Later today I got my Filament Magazine (I'll review I promise). I commented to my Mum how happy I was and how I liked the artistic photos of men. She was surprised I said men not women. Of course I explained that if I wanted art/porn with women I would visit modfetish or something like that. I can't find photos of men taken with similar aesthetic. Filament filled that void.
Excuses, excuses. The truth is no one is safe from me. Hide while you can because I'm planing to start having partner sex sometime this summer.
1 Comments:
Ooh, Filament magazine is awesome! Thank you for commenting on my blog! The Butterfly Kiss I have is the only phthalates-free version I've been able to find. I typically don't need to go past the second speed, or if I do it's just for a few minutes at max power. I agree that more speed settings would be useful.
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